When I found out I was pregnant, it was series of emotions. I felt joyful which made me “FINALLY! I’m here in this season” and scared at the same time.
“Can I even do this?”. That is the question that popped through my mind when I was on my way to work.
I was pregnant during COVID-19 pandemic days. People would say I should resign or get an early maternity leave but my momentum was to help people specially my colleagues. I was restricted to isolation area but since not everyone tells their true symptoms, may nakakalagpas pa din.
Aside from understaff, overfatigue hospital employees, the world is totally sick during those days. Everything is going down. But you don’t give up that easily, in my situation, I even strive harder, increase my knowledge and inspired by the child I carried.
Throughout my pregnancy, I was confident that God will not leave me by my side. My mom got covid during my first trimester, sa sobrang lakas ng immune system ko or talagang protected ako ni God, I didn’t acquired the virus (importance of sleep and prenatal vitamins!!!)
I had doubts of getting COVID-19 vaccine since there were little studies for pregnant women. But by the time I was convinced and dumadami na din yung nababalitaan kong buntis na nagkaka-Covid, it was also timely that there were enough studies that made me convinced and so I did my jab on my 3rd trimester.
Got even more confidence to do my job as a nurse when I got it. Stress was normal but it was too much for me to bear inside my family’s home. There were too many relational dysfunction which affects me and plays too many lies repeatedly in my head, my husband and I decided to get our temporary shelter.
Hindi pa din mawala sa isip ko magulang ko, and every night I still remind them to stay healthy (COVID survivors btw). When we moved out, it was a start of our husband-wife journey. Masaya pero challenging. Hindi mawawala ang tampuhan pero what keeps us stronger is that whatever it takes, we will be in this together. He doesn’t want me to work but I insist and thank God for my job.
Those days ang dasal ko talaga panatilihing ligtas at malusog ang buong pamilya ko. Lalong lalo na sa sitwasyon ko din. Mahirap man. Pero kailangan eh. Masaya naman ako sa ginagawa ko pero may consequence and risks but thank God nakaraos ako ng walang sakit.
Na-enjoy ko maging nurse kahit ang toxic na ng paligid at hinding hindi ko bibitawan ang isang calling hangga’t kaya ko pa.