The mega star got emotional as she marked the 2nd death anniversary of her mom Elaine.
On her official Facebook account, she posted a touching letter for her mom, who passed away on November 5,2014 due to fatal complications during abdominal surgery. She was 79 years old.
“Two years ago today, November 5th, you left us. You left me,” she began. “I always think that I am now okay, that I am a big girl and that you didn’t really love me THAT much anyway, so could there really be much of a difference? And then I always realize that I am wrong. I miss you, Mommy ko. I still haven’t gotten used to being an orphan. I am a Mommy, but truly, I NEED to be the baby girl of my Mommy and Daddy.”
“I miss you, Mommy ko. I still haven’t gotten used to being an orphan. I am a Mommy, but truly, I NEED to be the baby girl of my Mommy and Daddy.”
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“But both of you had been called home. And maybe that is why I often cannot sleep well, that I often feel lost nowadays, that I find things in my past to hold on to even if I should have let go long ago,” continued the mom of four, adding that she wished to go back to “how things were” when she had both her parents protecting her from the heartache of showbiz and her personal life.
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When she was still around, Sharon’s mom would give her advice on how to deal with an “unfaithful boyfriend (or husband)”.
“Or how someone in showbiz was rude to me and how you would remind me to always remember to just let them be, because maybe they weren’t taught well by their parents like I was,” she added. “Sometimes I cry because I remember I want to buy something we both liked to eat together or whatever it is we used to share — and just as I would start to get my phone, I would remember that you would never again be on the other side of the line.”
With the letter, she also enclosed an apology. More on that on the next page
In the letter, Sharon also took time to apologize for her perceived shortcomings as a daughter when her mom was still around.
“I am sorry for always thinking of how I thought you made me feel that I was never good enough for you. I think every time I had my heart broken, I would trace it back to feeling rejected by you and sometimes act in public like I was on top of the world when deep inside me, I felt only worthless,” she lamented in her honest message. “Heck — I was never enough for Gabby, or Richard, or Robin, or whoever else. I hope that I will always be enough for Kiko. Good enough. The only one he’ll ever need. Just ENOUGH.”
“I am sorry for everything I ever did or said to hurt you, whether intentionally or not. I am just sorry.”
photo: Sharon Cuneta facebook
“I am sorry for everything I ever did or said to hurt you, whether intentionally or not. I am just sorry,” continued Sharon. “Because now I need my Mommy and she isn’t there. Not even for me to be able to hug as I say “I am so sorry” to her. I love you very much, Mama. I miss you more than I ever thought I would.”
You can read Sharon’s love letter in full below.
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