I always want the best for my children. I want to give all their needs and even wants if I could. I want to be at their side all the time, teach and guide them as they grow. But I can’t and it hurts so deep. I love them so much.
As much as I want to, I need to sacrifice. I need to work. I need to help my husband earn for our everyday needs, especially our children’s. My husband’s minimal salary was not enough to pay for our food, bills, milk, and diapers. It’s hard but I have to.
Every day, before going to work, I make sure that I kiss my children, telling them that I love them so much. I feel sorry that I have to leave and choose work rather than staying by their side.
Others may not understand what we working moms go through.
Some judge us every time our kids do something wrong or they are sick. They say that we are not responsible mothers and that we do not know how to take care of our children.
These comments make me more upset and intensify guilt feelings. All I ever wanted is to give my children what they need and for them to have a better future.
I hope that those who judge working moms will understand that each of us is different. It doesn’t mean that if we choose to work, we are irresponsible mothers.
Our situation is different from yours. Others have enough income to fulfill the needs of their family, but that is not our case.
I don’t want to be in a situation where our family has barely enough to get by. Like others, I just want my children to have a better life.
After work, I still do what other mothers do, especially during my days off. I give all of my time and attention to my family.
I do chores and tend to my kids. I play with them, give them baths, watch shows together, teach them how to read and write, and teach them what is wrong from right.
Although they are still little, they already know why I need to leave for work. There are times when my kids have tantrums and it’s hard to leave, but I have to manage it or else I will be late or absent from work. In my case, that is okay.
I hope someday they will understand. I hope they will forgive me for not being on their side always and remember that I love them so much with all my heart.